Monday, June 30, 2014

A New Blog.

I have outgrown this blog. I found myself being too caught up in documenting my day-to-day life and as a result, it became cumbersome. For the first time in my life, I found myself not wanting to blog and that saddened me, deeply. So, I’m changing direction and I am starting fresh. I do not plan on deleting this blog – so much of my life resides amongst these pages that it would be heart breaking to get rid of. But, it is time to move on and I am finally ready to do so. I'll truly miss this blog, but I feel as though my time here has come to an end.

You can visit my new blog at: Unspoken Spells

I hope to see you there.

Wednesday, June 25, 2014

Turning To Emotions

I haven't been on here in quite some time and a part of me doesn't care. I have enough thoughts wreaking havoc inside my head that to even attempt to type them all of my daily happenings onto this screen of mine would be redundant. I haven't commented on anyone's blog lately and I know that because of this fact no one will comment on mine. But I don't care. I don't feel like connecting with anyone anymore anyways. Any, any, any. That seems to be a theme of mine lately. I have found myself living more. Any time - any place - any way. I have been reading more, spending time with my friends more, and spending time with Wade more. And I like where I am at right now. I know that I will always journal as a form of getting all of "what is inside of my brain" out, but as for now, the act of documenting feels played and shallow. I want to attempt to go back to writing about my feelings in response to what is happening in my life. Why? Simply because that is what I have always done. Granted it was in the form of poetry and short stories, but that was how I journaled. A emotional reaction to my life - both good and bad. So perhaps I'll start sharing more of my writing here. Maybe not. All I know is that I am ready for a change.

And for those of you who are still reading my blog, and who may not be commenting, I hope you will join me in this new venture of mine. It's going to be an emotional one.

Thursday, June 5, 2014

Bury St Edumunds


Our first stop on our two week holiday in England was Bury St Edmund (Suffolk). Bury was one of my favourite towns that we went to on our trip. There was an abundance of beautiful pubs filled with dark wood, a downtown area resplendent with a mix of old and new, a perfect cathedral, monastery ruins, and wonderful restaurants and shops. Wade and I stayed at the Three Kings Inn and we couldn't get enough of talking to the owners. Everyone was so sweet and I missed it when it was time to go to the next town...

Friday, May 30, 2014

the end of a vacation and the desire to never leave


Our trip to England is sadly coming to an end. Tomorrow afternoon we leave for the States.

Wade & I have been to so many incredible places, seen so much beauty and experienced so many amazing things together. This trip has definitely been one that I will cherish until the day I die. England is such a wonderful country, one that I feel at home in, one that I do not want to leave. We've been here for a little over two weeks and I wish we could live here forever....

I promise to post more photos and details from our trip once we get back and I've settled back into our daily routine.

Friday, May 9, 2014

A "welcome back to blogger" party for one, please

I know I haven’t blogged in a long time and believe me when I say that my reasons are good. But honestly I didn’t miss blogging during my unintended sabbatical. Things have been hectic, confusing and downright emotional. I could bare everything onto this screen, but I am just not that open. I can at least give you the bare minimum. Things between Wade & I had become severely strained a month ago, we thought we weren’t going to stay together, but we made it through. I know that we are on the road to rebuilding the best relationship that we can together and I feel good about our future.

School has come and gone in a flash. I managed to receive three A’s and my first F since I started college. If you guessed that the F was for a math class, you are correct! There was just no way for me to have properly focused on math with all of the emotional upheaval I was going through so I decided to bite the bullet, fail the class and make plans to take the class over again next semester. Yes, this has pushed back my graduation even farther, but it was a necessary evil and easy choice in order to maintain some semblance of sanity.

Speaking of graduation, last Saturday my little sister graduated summa cum laude with a bachelor’s degree in political science. I am so proud of her and I cannot believe she is starting this new chapter in her life. If you are still reading my blog after my absence, I appreciate it and I hope all is well!

Thursday, March 20, 2014

Struggles.

Write about a challenge you currently deal with on a day to day basis...

My daily life consists of many things like being a wife, going to work, school, studying, observing classrooms, and not to mention, trying to find time throughout my busy schedule for things I’d like to do. Such as spending time with my husband, reading, writing, yoga, going to the gym, and carving out time for my family and friends. I’d be lying if I told you it wasn’t hectic at times. Luckily, I have a great supporter – my husband. Wade will make sure bills are taken care of, that the house remains clean, and that the laundry gets done. Aside from all of these

Needless to say it can be challenging. But really, when it comes down to it, my most challenging aspect is trying to control my stress. I have an extremely difficult time when it comes to managing stress. Yes, the gym and yoga helps – but sometimes when there are multiple essays due and a math test that I need to study for I can start to feel my existence start to spread thin. When that happens, I get snippy, argumentative, and I start to withdraw within myself. My emotions start heading south and it creates even worse problems. So, how do I deal with it?

Aside from running and doing yoga to help manage it for the most part, when I find myself feeling super stressed I try and breathe. It sounds silly, but actually stopping for a moment to just breathe – or even hold my breath – can do wonders. Sometimes I forget this little trick, but lately I have been remembering to do so. Aside from that, I’ve found that even just talking about how stressed I am with Wade helps. It is naturally hard for me to share my feelings, so it takes a little internal encouragement, but it works.


*linking up with danielle's journal day over at sometimes sweet.

Monday, March 17, 2014

The Past Three Days: A Review

These past few days have been a blur. Nice, but a blur. Friday night Wade & I celebrated our five year wedding anniversary with lots and lots of steak and yummy cocktails. He got me the sweetest gift too. Since each anniversary, we try and stick to the appropriate wedding gifts and this year was wood. Wade gave me the prettiest handmade wooden box filled with love quotes. He even had our names placed on the inside of the lid. So, so sweet. I got him a wooden puzzle of a raven that actually stands up when completely put together.

Also, how cute does Wade look with his beard? He started growing it three weeks ago and I think he looks incredibly hot and adorable all at once.

On Saturday I went over to my sister and her boyfriends house and watched so many episodes of Workaholics. I absolutely love that show and it was nice watching it with Caitlin and Brandon.

Sunday was another fun day for me because I was able to spend time with my best friend. Brooke and I went out to lunch and then went shopping. She bought me the coolest hair ties and I am so lucky to call her my best friend because she remembered how much I admired hers that she gave me my own.

It's been raining pretty much all day today and I am one happy girl.
Which just reminds me of Garbage's song "I'm Only Happy When It Rains" and then I am reminded of how much I miss the 90's.